Facing my Own Reality of Facebook

I have expressed my discontentment for Facebook in a prior post, and I still have something to say about it...I know I know "Can you just drop it already?"  Oh believe me I wish I could, but I am far from jumping off the Facebook bandwagon.

I have to ask myself, if Facebook weren't around would I exist?  Duh, of course I would still be living, breathing, walking, and talking.  But would I be me?  Would I be the person you all know and love.

Would I run?  Would I train for crazy races?  How many mountains would I choose to climb?  What would be my joy in life?  Would I be known for something?  Would I care so much what others thought of me?  Have I just been doing all these things for my page "content."  If I gave it up, what then, would be the content of my life?

I found myself getting to a place where my motivation for doing something was to gain a like or reaction from my cyber buddies.  I used Facebook as my very own brag-book.  It was just subtle enough that I could smack a different name tag on it other than what it is...but let's call it what it is.  It fed my ego and fed my pride.  And I am tired of being defined by an edited and simplified version of myself.  Believe me I am so complicated no wall could contain me and my life.  

Now that I am back in the stone ages with my old school flip phone (that barely holds its charge for more than 5 hours)  My goal of decreasing life online is more easily obtained.  I lack the filters and editing tools to bedazzle my life.  Not to mention you can't really log on to social media with a flip phone, no matter how many times you click it open and shut and say "there's no place like Facebook, there's no place like Facebook." So I am on my way to living Facebook free but I still struggle with the scroll/ scroll/ like dance.  Scrolling, always scrolling.  So many little pieces of other's lives that are viewed by me with too much judgement or not enough compassion.  If we were supposed to be exposed to other's lives like that God would have made highways we could drive on to view them...but still, I think I can scroll faster than I can drive.

I desire for people to know me through more than just a photo.  What my heart say about me is more important than what an invisible wall says about me.  Jump over the walls and get to know people, face to face.  Use it as a tool but not a lifestyle...do you think Mark Zuckerberg would install a timer device that limited how long you could be logged on in a  24 hour period?? is there an app for that?