New Year Old Me

I wrote a letter to someone.  It will not be opened until December 31, 2017.  It is filled with joyful moments and moments that take a deeper look to find the joy.  It talks of what we have experienced and the hopeful future that could be had.  A letter that glances back but focuses on what may be to come.

I remember going into 2016 thinking that it would be the year everything would be good, a turning point in my relationships, I believed the problems had climaxed and things were on the upswing.  I was ignorant to believe my spiritual life was fine and I could work well without my eyes fixed on my creator.  I was foolish in believing unhealthy could magically become healthy.  I go into 2017 with little to no expectations (at least that is what I am striving for).  I look to God for answers and direction and see the growth not just in myself but in others.  I know that I won't do everything perfectly or even close to perfect.  My friend just started her own blog called Finding Balance; in it she talks about how some days will be 35% or maybe less, and that is okay because with each sunrise there is a new start.  Thankfully God gives us this grace, once we accept it we can give grace freely to others.  Which is a beautiful thing.  Allowing imperfections means being free to make mistakes and pick ourselves up again to keep going.  

The letter may or may not be given to the whom it is addressed.   A year is a long time for things to change and I don't know what is in store at this point.  Thankfully, no matter what changes come in my life  there is one thing that will remain constant.  Jesus.  He does not change.  He loves just as much, he continues to be our Savior.